Now that the holiday season is over, I can finally voice my opinion without being that targeted.
I don’t like Christmas. It is a weird time for me. People associate Christmas with family and cheer, and Christmas Day is spent having fun, spending time together, you know being a family.
I don’t associate that with Christmas. If I spend Christmas with family, I find it awkward and weird. It is not something I want to do, to me it is just a normal day except we have a bigger dinner and there is a tree in the corner of the living room.
The memories I have of Christmas aren’t that great. And it pains me to write this because my mum would hate to read this, she loves Christmas, and tries to make every Christmas normal, but our Christmases aren’t normal. To me they are normal and everyone else’s way of doing Christmas is weird, but when I speak of my Christmas experiences, people find it weird.
When my mum and dad were together, when I was younger, around 5-6, it would be fine. But my dad was in the Royal Navy, and he would often have to go on duty, and sometimes this was on Christmas, so I wouldn’t spend Christmas with him. This became a normal thing for me, to have spouts in my childhood where my dad wasn’t there as he would be on duty, either in Scotland, or in middle eastern countries.
My mum and dad eventually got a divorce, when I was in year six so I must have been 9 years old, and thats when Christmas started to become a weird thing for me. I would spend Christmas Day with my mum, then the rest of the afternoon with my dad and then I would go to my aunties on boxing day.
This then suddenly changed when my mum started to study to become a nurse. She would be on rota on Christmas and New Years, so there has been sometimes where I haven’t spent Christmas with either my dad or my mum, and then there are other times where we have to have Christmas dinner on another day, and we would have to reschedule Christmas to fit my parents schedule, so there has been a few times where our Christmas Day was on the 23rd, 24th, maybe even the 22nd.
I just don’t see the big deal with this time of the year, because my Christmas could be cancelled at any minute, and I believe that we should spend time with our families anyway, not because of the time of the season.
I do understand why people love it though. I often wonder, would I like it if my mum and dad where there at Christmas, or would I still dislike it?
Katy Nells xoxo